26/5/14 

 

Well , since i got the time now why don i update my bloggy again over here. Now i am currently at library using the computer here to update my blog.. 

Today should be monday blue, bur i don think that today is monday blues because today everyone seem to be PMS-ing , first is my bf after that is my friend OMG , i really don know what really happen today that everyone is not in a good mood at all , i also like not in a good mood today due to everyone like PMS-ing me , don know what seriously happen.

2 more days is me and baby 7 monthsary already , first time being in a relationship for so long feeling happy about the duration but not happy about the process , because i think i am a useless girlfriend and also only know how to make him unhappy only , like never once am i able to make him happy :( 
I really feel like shopping and like to shopping why when i want to go shopping also wrong ? I know he tired but is like damn long before we go shopping already , i know he dote on me and also give me surprises but i really need shopping and i like shopping i like walking around :( and sometime i know that he tired and i understand him and say okay go home , i showed black face and i knw he will hong me so my black face not so long until he hong me. 
But i really don know how to hong people when they are angry and when their face black especially and when they shout i will shout even louder than them and this point i really trying to change myself,  but how long can he tahan me ? How long can he hold ? Or he going to let go soon because of my nonsense attitude and my irritating ? I am really scare that he will leave me , i am really scare he will don want me throw me alone. 
If he really do that than i am all by myself no one will be there for me already , he is the only one that is by my side now , either than him and my family i bet no one le. 
But he really thought me a lot of things in life , he thought me how to do things and react to things , i really appreciate for his appearance because of his appearance i learn a lot and learning to change into a better person , as he said that if i don have the heart to change no matter how hard i try i will not change and i agree , but i really got used the heart to change just when he shouted i cant control myself to shout back , he black face i cant control myself show black face also and also don know how to hong him happy :( ESPECIALLY when he not scared tickler , because he not scared very hard to make him smile and laugh , disadvantage. 

Well , i really wish to be his last. I am trying to understand him and i also want him to understand me that i don like means i don like don do it , because when i want it i will let him know and i allow him to do it i will let him know today. I just wish him to cure this can already either than that other things i am alright with it. And i will try to reduce on going out and shopping to waste money okay ? Because i know earning money is not easy and 1.2k is not easy to come ~ I promise i will not keep ask you go shopping the most to most 1 month once or 2 months once okay ? Not very guo fen hor~~ 

Okay , basically this post is just anything about my feeling , i know is messy and not according at all , because i think of what that i type what de , it never go according hehe :) 
Okay it time i shall go already , because i use my break time to post this post because i done eating early and the time is only like 10.20 so i came to library to update my blog :) 
I really hope i got more time to update my blog!! and write more of my thinking and feeling over here to share it with my blog and also say out all my thinking than keeping everything to myself inside my heart like this i scare i will kena depression one day hahahahah :) Okay shall got le post again soon :) Maybe later got time post again hahahah , one day three post i am crazy man , but because i know i won keep my blog updated due to lazy , but when i want post i cant rmb or even will post a lot in-case i forget what to bloggggg ~~ ^^ 

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